My Outta Whack Back

Today was my check up with the chiropractor and well when I stand vertical my back leans to the left about 2 inches from the strait line its supposed to be in. Then also my neck bones are actually really strait when its supposed to have a curve so its actually starting to buckle inside out. Its going to cost like $2,120.00 and my mom is really frustrated because she doesn't really have the money for it. I'm going to try to help as much as I can. I have to go in every Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday (Saturday if I miss an appointment) until my back is better. This can take anywhere from 14-25 weeks. I have a feeling its going to be painful. It already kinda is. I'm going to go in tomorrow before work and see what happens. I'm actually scared.



Also yesterday Tanner brought me roses =]. It was so sweet. Today I took him some daffodils since you all know they are my favorite =].



I had a lactose intolerant attack last night and today. I threw up all over myself in the shower it was so gross ha ha. I am so tired and I like don't want to go to sleep yet.

But I guess I'm going to.

Love Yall!!

I love the daffodils!

Since spring is now here the daffodils, tulips, and irises are out and my they are beautiful! If only I could get a bouquet of them and I would gaze upon them all day =].

Another thing about them is that they are perennial meaning they will bloom every year in the same spot you keep them. I think that the flower has some guts to do that. I mean it would be hard for me to sit all winter and then at the beginning of spring to come up and bloom after freezing. Its one dedicated flower. That and the 'I Love the Daffodils' song makes me happy as can be. Here are the lyrics for those who have forgotten it =].

I LOVE THE DAFFODILS

I like the flowers.
I love the daffodils.
I like the mountains.
I love the rolling hills.
I like the fireside.
When the lights are high.

bom di ada, bom di ada, bom di ada, bom.
bom di ada, bom di ada, bom di ada, bom.

I like the flowers.
I love the daffodils.
I like the mountains.
I love the rolling hills.
I like the fireside.
When the lights are low.

Also the rhyme;

Daffy-down-dilly
has come to town,
in a yellow petticoat,
and a green gown.

I cannot wait until tomorrow when I go back to the chiropractor and see if something really bad is wrong with my back. Its been hurting a lot and it makes me want to slap a baby (not really though). We are going to go over my X-rays and I hope they put me back on the stem (electric massage) but I want it on my hips because they hurt most. I think that since I have flat feet it makes my back problems worse =[. I am going to ask Dr.Clark about it when I go back in. I also need to find a ice pack as big as my back so if any of you smart people know where to find one let me know =].

Today I was thinking about this one time Tanner and I were up in a tree in a church yard. I think we spent hours up there and I loved it. I wish we did more things like that. We are on a break right now and I hope that during this break we will be able to do cute dates and stuff and start to get along better. I'm taking him daffodils bouquet tomorrow =] I'm excited.

Well I gotta bounce!

MY NEW HAIR AND SUCHIN!!

Yeah I know that suchin is NOT a word but for the sake of the day, it is =]. Alright so Saturday I went and got my hair done and it look awesome not to brag or anything. I pretty much decided I'm going to marry myself but not really. I dyed it platinum blonde on top and black on bottom. I also cut it. I'm basically going to just take a picture and post it sometime =]. It only came out to be like $52.00 because the girls gave me a killer discount. It took almost 4 hours to get done.



I went to prom and it was a blast. I don't think I've ever sucked down so many helium balloons in one sitting, it was basically awesome. I got kinda sick the next day though... and slept all day. I felt like a lazy bum. I woke up at like 1:something P.M.... ugh. But here is a video of me and people in the elevator!! Hee hee I hope you enjoy my cheap Shakespear =].

Prom 09 (in the elevator)




Today, just a few moments ago, I choked on my root beer. I thought I was going to die... or pass out... AGHHH!!! Ever since I got my tonsils out I have choked easier... Its almost like my tonsils told my throat to close so I didn't choke.



I have decided recently that if I ever got to meet a living singer I would most definitely want to meet Justin Furstenfeld from Blue October. He has given me a lot of inspiration and his ideas, lyrics, and look is just unique and inspiring. Their music is so emotionally impactful. I think you all should go and look them up and see if you like them!(http://www.blueoctoberfan.com/approachingnormal/index.php)

I really like them =] especially Justin and his amazing talented brother Jeremy. P.S you should look for the song blue by them that's where my new nic name came from =].

I went to the chiropractor and I have to go back on Wednesday to make sure my back isn't beyond repair. They took like 4 different X-rays. It was intense (like camping). They also put me on stem which is like an electrical massage (ITS LIKE ADDING MUSCLES TO AN ELECTRICAL STORM WITH REAL LIGHTNING!!) and it tweaks your muscles its pretty much awesome and I LOVE IT!

Later I'm going to write up a whole blog specifically about Blue October and how amazing gorgeous they and their music is! HA HA!!!

Sorry my poem blog is on the halt for a bit I just haven't had time =] I'll get all up on that though =].

HAVE A GOOD DAY PEOPLE!

I feel sick...

First of all yesterday Tanner asked me to call him after I got off work and usually that means 'when you get home' but I guess I didn't think as deep into it as I should of because he meant 'when I got off work' so I kept him up. I know its only 6 minutes from Provo to my house but I guess its 6 extra minutes he could have been sleeping so now I feel like I never listen and no matter how hard I try I cannot, for the life of me, get it right. I'm trying though.



Also my hip is still retarded. The pain will go away then come back. I honestly feel like a 50 year old woman. My back and hips always hurt. I'm going to a chiropractor tomorrow. Really my worse fear is not being able to have kids because it will cause too much pain or my body cannot handle it. My one thing I ever want to do in this world is have a child but as I get older my possibilities keep decreasing because more and more problems keep coming up. Maybe this is one of the many tests God has sent me or a punishment... In reality I'm not all together sure about it.



Ha ha some girl named Brittany just complimented my nose ring =].



I am so glad the warm sunshine is out because it is starting to make me much happier. I think during the fall and winter I am the most depressed. That and there are not a lot of hours at work so I'm just starting to get it in. One of my most frustrating things right now is that I'm -$175.00 in debt because I've been totally screwed over by a collection agency which my dad payed and they are STILL calling me. I'm so sick of everyone being after me for money. I was going to cancel my hair appointment but Kadee insists to pay for it but my next pay check I'm paying her back in full and I am also going to vacuum and shampoo her car because I feel like its what I need to do. She is always too nice to me. I'm really sad she is moving back to Mona... I don't really want her to.


Anyways I dont have anymore to say......


laterz...

BUZZ BUZZ!!

So I haven't been on in awhile SORRY! There is a bunch going on!!

So to get my hair the color I want it and the type of style I want its going to be like $80-$100 but I want it so BAD!! I never really spend my money on myself and I think I deserve it so that's what I'm doing! HA!



I want my hair to kinda look like that. Sure its going to be on me and much cooler! I'm pretty excited to do it =D.

So I spent the night with Tanner recently and he made me feel so special. We went to bed and I woke up about 5:00 a.m. I think and I was so sick. I had to go to the bathroom and I honestly thought I was going to barf. He woke up and stayed with me the whole time. It was one of the sweetest things ever! I felt special.

Also on the Tanner note, yesterday I fell on my hip and I think I popped it out of place (yes just like an old lady XD) and since it was so hard to move around he made me lunch and even offered to carry me to my car. It really was sweet. It meant a lot to me in many many ways =]. He has been very sweet lately and I love it =].

So I lost one of my poems I wrote and that's why my poem blog is temporarily on halt! UGH! I'm going to fix it... I have a lot to fix.

So I got Kadee in trouble today because I made her late for work... I'm such a jerk. Also I picked up Jacoby at lunch because his mother is insane! She wont let him hang out with me either... Not a lot of parents like me. Tanners mom likes me =] I call her mom because she's like my second mom. She is short and adorable! Their whole family is I love them to peices.

I hope you all remember how I got my nose pierced, well my dumb nose ring keeps popping out of my face! Its highly irritating and frustrating! I need to get a new ring that doesn't do that. Like a screwy one.

Anyways that's all I really have to say for today =] TTYL!

MY NEW BLOG!

Hey guys I just wanted to bring to your attention I made a new blog and its strictly my poems. If you want to go see it its at http://three-hundredandsixtyfive.blogspot.com/ or you can also probably find the link to its somewhere on here I'm not sure where it would be =]. I hope you guys will look for it because I'm excited to do it!

On another note Jacoby now works with me and its awesome!

I got the new Blue October CD 'Approaching Normal' and its fantastic! I suggest it to the whole world.

Today I'm going to do all my homework or at least make a good dent in it and get it done!

Yesterday I cleaned out my car and even shampooed my seats!! ITS SO NICE!! A clean car is a happy car and a happy car is a happy Adrienne =].

Quinn is buying me a car in a few weeks but its going to be 'OUR' car somehow we still haven't fixed all the little problems in this plan. Its a little white Saturn. I still think its WAY to big a gift the end.

So really this is all I have to say =]. I have a date on Wednesday with Cameron and I'm pretty excited! I'm most definitely going to dance! But inside not outside, I'm too white to dance other ways.

I love you all!

short and sweet... like salt

I'm pretty sure this post is going to be mega short... Okay maybe not as short as last times but pretty short.

First of all my bank account is now $130.00 in overdraft and everyday Wal*Mart (blood sucking parasites who use child labor!!) is charging me $23.00 because they keep trying to submit a check into an account that has NO MONEY!! They are stupid impudent a-holes! I have to go work a under-the-table second job so I can get money to put in my gas tank and get shoes for prom.... I'm so screwed... I also have to get money to get my hair done because my mom isn't going to be there to help me out... DANG YOU DANG YOU TO HECK!!!

Second off I don't have my car today Quinn has it because I was once again too tired to drive my own butt home. We had 4 midnight showings last night at work and I had to work pretty late.

Speaking of work Jacoby now works with me HOORAY! Its going to be pretty intense but not like camping because I'm too angry with the world ha ha ha!

Now speaking of Jacoby he isn't at school today (lucky butt head) and neither is Tiffany... The only two friends I have so I was so bored and lonely at lunch (and since I don't have my car I couldn't go out!) I actually went into my chemistry class and DID homework. Oh my heck it was anything but amazing.

This weekend and spring break I have to do tons of homework and I'm going to cry... a lot... Everyone gets to go home and have fun and I have to stay home being bored doing homework... Technically I don't get a spring break XP.

Anyways that's all I really have to say. HAPPY SPRING BREAK AND HAVE TONS AND TONS OF FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. MY COMMENTS FINALLY WORK HURRAH! (hurrah definitely is more manly that hooray!). Also I had to edit myself because I'm in class which in itself is pretty lame.

I have come to the conclusion

THAT I AM A WIENER!!


AND FOR ALL THE BOYS READING THIS MINE IS MUCH BIGGER THAN YOURS IS.


THAT IS ALL =]

I am a liar

I am a liar and a damn good one too. Maybe its not something that I should be proud of but in reality right now its what I want to talk about.



You might not be interested in why I think this is fascinating or you could also read this and think that I have lied to you everyday of your life. You can take what you want from this blog because this is where I am going to ..... *drum roll* TELL THE COMPLETE AND HONEST TRUTH!!!! And if you respond to this blog with any question(s), even if they don't pertain to this subject and I don't care what the question is, I'm going to answer the question full out bluntly without any lies, run arounds, beat arounds, or sugar coating. I understand that many people could possibly get hurt but, that's how the joint rolls.



So you may think to yourself, why this post? What's going on?? Well its simple really, I WANNA! Right now I have so much on my mind I feel like I'm on speed. I'm a druggie without an addiction (thank you Ozzy). So here are some facts about me right now that you might not know and now you do. First off I still cut myself. Maybe not often but I still do, I just choose to hide it. I do it because I like the endorphin rush. The second thing is I know I'm beautiful and whatever but I think the fact that everyone wants to have sex with me really lowers my self esteem to me thinking I'm only good for sex. Maybe it's true but maybe prince charming is out there. Then again maybe he isn't. I think honestly there is no prince charming. I have stopped believing in "true love". The only reason two people come together and stay together forever and ever isn't because they are "soul mates". Its because they couldn't find anything better to do. I honestly never really want to get married. I wont because a few years down the road, your "prince charming" wanted your pants off or wasn't even attracted to you in the first place. There is no prince charming or his white horse.



So also I'm depressed beyond all reasoning. Its pretty ridick. I take care of it in my way though and I know people don't like that. Honestly my friends are my friends and they know, if you don't understand you much not be that close of a friend. I deal with my depression my way. I figure if my mom isn't going to the doctors to get real medicine I'll make my own. People say, "You only think your depression is leaving when it really isn't". REALITY CHECK! I'm with my best friends doing what I like to do. I AM happy and when it's all done and over with I look back the next day and go, "DAMN THAT WAS FUN!" So don't tell me about your 'it's all in your head shit' because it's not.



I just want to make the point I AM NOT depressed as I write this but in a state of openmindedness. Its pretty intense like camping! Life gives you lemons and so you squirt life with lemon juice right in the bloodshot eyes!! Take that life =]. Well I'm going to go to bed since its...... 2:14 in the morning and I have places to be things to see and people to do.. HA HA JUST KIIDDING! Write me back if any of this makes sense because in the morning it might not! I love you all and some I love more than I should or want to.



Adrienne the psychobilly

HO-HUM!!!

Today is my ho-hum day.

I got in my car and got water ALL over me AND my car.... pisses me off. My butt is still friggin wet! Then I yelled at my brother and I feel like a total douche bag. I think I made him cry. I officially win the douche bag sister of the year award.

So yesterday Jacoby asked me to prom it was pretty cute. He got a barbie doll car and some frozen sticky buns and put a note on it that said "May I haul your 'buns' to prom?" -Jacoby. I thought it was adorable other than the fact my history class then decided to stop class to discuss mine and Jacoby's relationship. Slightly embarrassing right? So the whole reason there was even water in my car was because I came up with this brilliant elaborate plan to answer him back (which I will not put on here until he gets it in case he gets on here and I ruin the surprise) and well it involved ice... which did not freeze last night! Made me SO mad.

Yeah today I was a complete jerk to my brother and now I'm all wet. Oh and today I went to Mrs.Masters classroom (my adult roles teacher) and then had to go to seminary (clear across the school yard). I got there and they decided to tell me we had leadership (a really stupid thing our charter school has) and I had to go ALL the way back to the school and I was really aggravated by that UGH!!

On the positive side I had two brilliant dreams last night one was terrifying WHILE I was having it but its pretty funny now I can't wait to tell Jacoby and Kadee about them ha ha. I'll have to have more time and post them on here one day. Maybe later today.

Well I have to go my class just got out. I'll try to come back on later.