Fidelity

How is it that once I attach myself completely to someone and trust them with my life its like a semi comes and runs me over. I have most my heart to my best friend who, like several times before, throws it in my face like a cruel joke. The on person I have turned to for so much. The one person I have to approval of for anyone I go out with, anything I do, and also I have told every secret to. He knows more about me than people I've gone out with.

I would have given this boy my heart my life anything. I gave him my trust and everything but now once again, he's ripped my insides to shreds.

Looks like I'm going to have to turn to someone else. Too bad because I really was happy with him being my best friend. Maybe it will be less tension after he's back closer so I can talk to him face to face, that is if he can even stand my face.

That's all for now.


Adrienne

Dear Jacoby Please Dont Leave

So as many of you know Jacoby is one of my best friends and the rude head is leaving to Mongolia for THREE MONTHS!!!! I am not very happy about it because I'm going to miss him so much. I don't even get to see him very much now unless it's at work because he is living with his parents and they hate my guts. That and now his phone is dead and so I really don't get to see him and its a bit depressing.

To clear things up me and Jacoby have no interest in each other and aren't going out, dating, or anything like that. We are simply just two friends that are of the opposite sex that have a lot in common. I don't really know why I am on here complaining he is going to leave because there is nothing you can do about it at all but I thought I would come and at least talk about it.

So for the next three months everyone needs to come see Adrienne and keep her company because my main fruit squeeze is leaving :(. Oh and just so you know you can't completely replace Jacoby, :) he is my special fruit ha ha. Anyways, I think you all should talk to me I'm bored and rambling.

PEACE!

Green Finch, Linett Bird

Nightingale and black bird how is it you sing?

I feel like Johanna in a way. My car blew up and Quinn's truck isn't running so I'm stuck at home and have to find rides EVERYWHERE! I realized I was more depressed when I couldn't leave when I wanted to. I think when I'm stuck at home I get depressed. I don't think its a good idea for me to not have a car but I can't just go buy one because I don't make good enough money.

I know thats not much of a post but its all I got for now. I'll be back again later.

Adrienne

Well its been a while for this little piggy

I think that's a song. Yes yes its by stained! I love that song! Its been a very long time since I have written here. A lot of stuff has happened. Quinn got out of jail and now he lives with me, my mom, and my brother.



I also have swine flu. Everyone has been treating me like a life threatening disease. Its really kinda making me depressed because I feel like everyone doesn't care about me. There are a few that don't mind and want to come see me but most everybody else is like, "I'll come see you if I can find a face mask." I'm so sick of everybody freaking out because its killed some people. Most everybody that has died has been small children and elderly people. Those people also die from the common flu. I feel just fine for having the swine flu. I make brownies, cook my food, bathe, and eat like a horse. I don't know why everyone is treating me they way they are. I may as well be the plague.

I really want to see the new transformers movie! It looks pretty pimp-tastic! I'm sick of being cooped up in my house but I can't leave unless I have a face mask. So for 3 days I have been stuck in my house... doing nothing. Its quite boring but at least I have company. That makes it a little easier.

Well thats all I have for right now so I'll let you be. Have fun!

Why did the chicken cross the road???

Obviously to get away from his traffic tickets, 6 bench warrants, and every cop out there. Unfortunately this dumb chicken was Quinn. Right now I don't know what to do because well Quinn owes more than $2,000.00 in traffic violations and he has had 3 sheriffs try to come get him today. To be honest I don't think he will be coming home from work tonight, although I hope he will. I hope that the cops will lay off him until he can pay off his debts. I think I'm going to convince him to pawn a whole bunch of stuff off so he can put the money towards that. I'm really disappointed he has let it get this out of hand and that he is so negative. He keeps blaming the cops... It wasn't their fault he was driving without insurance. The crappy thing is that only 3 of his warrants will be cleared by that $2,000.00, the other three are completely missing. We went to go see what he owed and well, they were not at the place we thought they were so we will look some more.

Today was the last day of school for me. I feel like I'm missing something for some reason or another. Maybe I'll figure it out but maybe I wont. I just feel like the year was incomplete, whether it was due to the fact I failed math or that I'm going to be a senior next year, I am unsure. It blows my mind I'm going to be a senior. I don't exactly want to be in school a whole other year but I also don't want to ever leave. I fear that when I leave I'll be all scattered and nothing will work out. I guess in a way I am afraid to grow up.

Jacoby is graduating tonight and I can't get him anything this paycheck. My next paycheck though I'm going to get him a graduation gift and also a birthday gift due to the fact he is turning 18 tomorrow! I'm pretty excited.

There is so much going on right now I just can't tell you everything! I want to break down and cry but I want to stand up and sing. I think today is the saddest I have been in like 2 months. Lately my depression hasn't been so bad. I've been happier!!

I have a lot to figure out right now... especially because Quinn won't answer his phone. I'm worried. I have to go I'll write later.

yawn

Yes I am tired.. Very le tired! I can't stop yawning!

I took a test this morning in adult roles and got 94.6% OH YEAH! It was the end of level test from the state and I passed!

I'm giving blood today and I'm kinda scared actually. I've never done it before but I'm going to at 6:30 and I hope they don't suck my arm dry!! I'll cry and wither away!

I have so much stuff I need to get... Like for instance my snake food and also his new lamp because his broke.. I dont really know why.

I really feel like going swimmin and I can't wait to go. I'm not sure when I'm going but I will soon! I think I'll get a seasons pass! That would be AMAZING! I also want to get a seasons pass to Lagoon. I hope I can. This summer I'm going to get either a better job or a second job. I really need to save a bunch of money this summer to get a new car and possibly a motorcycle.

I'm pretty much excited!

Well see yall later =]

Its HOT HOT HOT!

Okay so I think thats a song but I'm also probably horribly wrong =]. The sun is way warm today its so nice! I love to breath in the warm grass smell. Also I'm going to start working on at least a tint for my skin so I'm not so white =].

I have so much on my mind I cannot even come close to telling you! Honestly I would have to write a million blogs to even come halfway of telling you everything on my mind. (I think Jacoby once said something to that affect so sorry =/)

I have new baby rats I dont know if I told you guys. They are just starting to grow fur and they are SO FRIGGIN CUTE!! I just want to kiss them to death!

Yeah so thats all I have to say for today =].