I feel sick...

First of all yesterday Tanner asked me to call him after I got off work and usually that means 'when you get home' but I guess I didn't think as deep into it as I should of because he meant 'when I got off work' so I kept him up. I know its only 6 minutes from Provo to my house but I guess its 6 extra minutes he could have been sleeping so now I feel like I never listen and no matter how hard I try I cannot, for the life of me, get it right. I'm trying though.



Also my hip is still retarded. The pain will go away then come back. I honestly feel like a 50 year old woman. My back and hips always hurt. I'm going to a chiropractor tomorrow. Really my worse fear is not being able to have kids because it will cause too much pain or my body cannot handle it. My one thing I ever want to do in this world is have a child but as I get older my possibilities keep decreasing because more and more problems keep coming up. Maybe this is one of the many tests God has sent me or a punishment... In reality I'm not all together sure about it.



Ha ha some girl named Brittany just complimented my nose ring =].



I am so glad the warm sunshine is out because it is starting to make me much happier. I think during the fall and winter I am the most depressed. That and there are not a lot of hours at work so I'm just starting to get it in. One of my most frustrating things right now is that I'm -$175.00 in debt because I've been totally screwed over by a collection agency which my dad payed and they are STILL calling me. I'm so sick of everyone being after me for money. I was going to cancel my hair appointment but Kadee insists to pay for it but my next pay check I'm paying her back in full and I am also going to vacuum and shampoo her car because I feel like its what I need to do. She is always too nice to me. I'm really sad she is moving back to Mona... I don't really want her to.


Anyways I dont have anymore to say......


laterz...